I sort of miss blogging about my job. It was very therapeutic. However, as I noticed the same toxic comments over and over again I decided to delete the thing, in favor of attempting to cultivate a more positive outlook going forward.

Right.

Ten years ago everyone told me when I was being teased by the popular crowd at school not to worry, as one day I would be their boss!

I worked hard and got my BA a semester early. 3.8, cum laude. English -- I wanted to teach. I naively thought everyone enjoyed learning, like me, and it would be fun to show a new generation all the neat language and literature I enjoyed.

I subbed for a while after college to figure out what age group I liked best. I quickly figured out I would need to be more of a battle ax to be in the classroom. The discipline and government standards wore on me quickly. I took a job at the company my mother works at for a few extra bucks while I figured out what to do.

Then, I casually mentioned apartment hunting, and Bam! I was pushed out of the house. The freedom wasn't so bad even though I knew it would limit my job hunt.

Then, a few months later, my boyfriend proposed, and we were married in a small ceremony last April.

Then, hubby decided he would go back to school on the weekends. He has an Associate's with a 2.2. Failed four classes, played video games most of the time, and makes 20 cents an hour more than I do, to courier documents to the airport.

Ten years later, the ditz with a year of community college that's two years older than I am and on her second kid is my boss and telling me to get files and run copies for her. She's excitedly yammering on about her $2700 refund while hubby and I pare out our $900. I think back to the people who told me I had all this potential to be something great and want to kick them in the teeth.

Lounge, frankly, this sucks. I can't figure out why my education isn't worth anything to anyone. I have two years general office experience now and desperately want a more challenging job. I can't figure out how to build on any skills at this place and have a professional network close to zero because no one networks with the copier chick. I could go back to grad school but I feel people perceive me as overeducated already. My attitude isn't so hot because I am bored out of my mind. There are people all around me with piles of work on their desks that I would excitedly jump in to doing but no one is willing to delegate it to me even if I ask. I'm at my wit's end and could use a hug, or some advice, or something. Thanks!