Couldn't sleep yet couldn't bring myself to stay up right and post all night long.

Did a lot of thinking most of it of the kind "If you had the Cancer, don't you think they would have found it by now?"

Silly boy.

The reason they are going to scope me is because I haven't stopped bleeding since coughing extra hard on the morning of the 14th and looking down at a palm full of blood.

I called the doctor right then and there and he told me to see if it continued. Well, on and off until now.

The antibiotics had slowed the blood down to a trickle but they were starting to get worried in the middle of last week when it just wouldn't stop.

Didn't get worse, didn't get better.

But it was yesterday when the weekend guy, someone I hadn't developed any kind of relationship with told me they wanted to scope me that I started to, of course, jump to conclusion X which of course set me off on all sorts of what if crazy scenarios.

Now I realize that what is probably going to happen is that they will look to find out which part of the infection is causing the trickle trickle trickle of the blood and they will cauterize it. They will also look around to see how much mucus is being produced and why.

Had the same procedure late in 2006 and it was that scope that eased me off the transplant list.

All and all I would say my rational thinking is spot on for a monday morning.

We shall see.

I do hope they finish quickly because I want some egg and bacon bagel sandwiches from this great little deli about two miles away from here.

Did I mention they put swiss and Tabasco sauce on the sandwich?