I've been on DU for a long time and if you've been around you know I've been through a lot. I've actually been through more than I've posted about. A lot of what I didn't post about had to do with my husband and how he would treat me.

He has shown signs of PTSD and has recurring headaches leftover from his mild traumatic brain injury sustained while in Iraq. He gets angry, paranoid, unstable, etc. He tried to divorce me while overseas, but then begged me to take him back. I did so thinking that he deserved another chance considering what he went through and we had a young daughter who needed he Daddy. Needless to say that all of the work I put into keeping our family together these last three years was for naught. He is leaving. He has not been faithful and most likely is moving on to this person, even though he still can't admit it.

Right now I am devastated for myself, sure, but my heart is absolutely breaking into pieces for my daughter. He hasn't been the most attentive parent even before all this started.

I am trying to hold it together, but it is hard. What I feel the most is the sheer stupidity I exhibited when I decided to give him another chance. I'm totally humiliated.

You all are wonderful people and I consider you my friends. Because of my soon-to-be-ex's mental state most of my friends have been scared away, so if you would indulge me, I would like to be able to lean on you. You all give the best advice and stick up for each other when it matters most. Thanks so much.