I'm trying to do something about my lonely life, really I am. I resorted to a dating site because it doesn't happen of its own accord. Everybody else who uses this site seems to rave about how good it is, how high quality the people on it are, how fast they get a result. I've been on it six months and met one person. And she didn't want to see me again after one meeting.

I don't get it. I don't know how to play this game of life. Do you get an instruction manual at the beginning? Mine got lost somewhere. I honestly don't know how to do this. It is a complete mystery to me. All my friends tell me not to think that there's something wrong with me, but obviously, clearly, there has to be. It's like the way a wasp is painted with black and yellow lines as nature's way of saying DANGER! DON'T TOUCH!! I feel like that. I've got a big warning sign painted on me, or just above my head.

If it's the case that you have to suffer the rejections before one person says yes, I say fuck it. My rate seems to be that I need to approach 1000 different people for one to like me. It isn't worth it. Women don't like me. Period. I need to just accept it and stop looking. And that WON'T be what makes it happens for me, so don't say it. It won't.

I quit. No more. I'm going to bed. Alone. Again. And for the rest of my life.

Goodnight.