The mistreatment of the detainees at Guantanamo is a living, ongoing, nightmare for all Americans with a conscience. I suffer vicariously because I can't stand to see any living thing mistreated. And for George Bush to defend and promote this scourge against human rights, drives me wild. I think all of America is just a little more mentally ill each day. And I think the people like Dr. Laura and Rush limbaugh that have radio air time each day and promote and defend the torture and detainment of innocent human beings are the MOST mentally ill. I know my level of depression and despondency are part of the helplessness I feel when this stuff can't be stopped. And the blatant unfairness of the Bush crimes going unpunished makes me freak out. How can they get away with the lies, murder, theft of the Iraq oil, illegal rendition and detainment, torture, and all Bill got was a blowjob. I can't take it. I can't stand to know people are being hurt and abused and scared. All because someone sold them for a bounty. This awful thought popped into my head the other day when I thought how I would withstand torture, knowing I was innocent, being asked the same things over and over, being beaten, for my answers, just wanting to be left alone. I thought that if I was handed a gun, with the option of killing myself, or enduring unending questioning, humiliation, anal rape and abuse, I'd like the option to kill myself. I think that when George Bush writes his own American Geneva Convention rules, being the old ones are so quaint and out of date there should be an option of killing yourself if you can't face 5 years of torture. That's what I would want. Send the suicide note home to your family: Sorry I'm a coward, I couldn't take it, I love you, see you on the other side. There should be an option.